emrdyl

I believe i have mentioned once that someone-i-dun-even-noe have been sending me rather nice-to-read emails.
Weird i noe.
Is this karma?
Me stalk people, people stalk me?
Haha. Okae, crap.
Well, whoever you are, i appreciate them.
And to show my appreciation, I'm gonna post one of your emails here.

It's about friendship.
When i read it, i find that somehow, what he wrote are true.
I mean, friendship in this dog eat dog world is just so fragile and vulnerable.
Some friends are worth to keep, treasure and remember although they might be somewhere out there busy.
But most are just not worth remembering at all.
Some are so nice that you wanna treat them like precious princess and prince.
But others are just so annoying that you feel like slapping their oh-so-flawless face every time you see them walking by.
As for me, I've been there, done that and i ain't looking back to the seeds I've sown and thrown.
I bet Isolde would agree with me on this.
Coz both me and her have been through the dirty phases and it's indeed such a blessing to find and have someone whom i am very comfortable with.
You know, friendship is just like relationship; its the same.
Sometimes you want it to last,
but when high tide comes, somewhere somehow, it ends and leave a scar in your heart.
They say friends come and go and some are just like a passing phase
and they also say its easy to make friends but its even super easier to make enemies.
Upsetting right?

Okae, enough of sidetracking, lets get to the email proper.

"The only way to have a friend is to be one ".

Below are some qualities which are required to maintain a long term friendship.

1. SELECT YOUR FRIENDS CAREFULLY: As the saying goes " Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend "

2. ENGAGE IN CORRESPONDENCE REGULARLY: It's important to keep communicating with your friend. If not in person, by letters, email or the telephone once in a while would prove to a worthwhile friendship.

3. LISTEN TO YOUR FRIEND: A close friendship should consist of two people (or more if desired) who are able to be an active listener and active talker. You should be able to talk freely to him/her; whining and complains alike.

4. TRUST YOUR FRIEND: Be a person who shares things. Friendship is all about sharing your time, thoughts, opinions, Joy, Sorrows etc . Sharing is not possible without trust. Trust in your friend.

5. KEEP SECRETS AS SECRETS: A good friend never reveals the secrets of the friend to others. So, select one who will keep secret and be one who keep secrets .

6. STAY WITH YOUR FRIEND IN GOOD AND BAD: Friendship is always a responsibility . We should not treat friendship as an opportunity . Be with your friend in every moment of his/her glory and gloom. For some, it is easy to be in good things, but not in bad times. Bad times test true friends. So are the good times .

7. TRY TO MAKE YOUR FRIEND A SUCCESS: Henry Ford says, " My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me. " At the same time take all possible help from your friend to make your life a success . Friendship is a mutual success. Give in abundance, take in abundance .

8.9. RECONCILE:" The best way to keep your friends is not to give them away ."-

& I decide to add this as Number 10.
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10.

*Pure Bliss*
If i die tonight, i would want her to be the first person to know.

emrdyl

My dear Isolde's leg is swollen. =(
Trust you not to open your eyes wider!! hehe
Aniwae, hope you guys will make a doa so that she would have a speedy recovery.
i HEART you babe. =)
Aniwae, brought my bro for a post-berthdae celebration.
It's great to spend the evening together since it's been a long time since we
have a heart-to-heart talk.
Told him about my Hero and he's pretty receptive about it.
That's a good start tho.
Dad fetched us from the Esplanade since we were too tired to squeeze into the public transport.
On the way back, guess what
a bird committed suicide by flying towards my dad's speeding car
and went underneath and i swear we all heard the grinding sound. *frightened*
I knew and i swear i saw the bird - dead.
EEEEEEYEWWWWWWW.
Didn't your momma told you not to fly around wildly?
Sigh. That's a waste of your life bird.
Your bad.
And THAT'S horrifying okay.

Aniwae, i kinda miss the long rides + blasting music in my ear to school.
And since Vacation is nearing (and that means exams are coming!!!) i know i would miss school even though i don't fancy waking up in the morning to rush for the bus.
Speaking of which, i'm going to miss the bus too.
I still remember how excited me and Isolde was before Semester starts last year.
I could vividly recall the time when we were scouting around to purchase our stationaries;
And the time when we were mugging for our MLA paper back in JC days;
I tell you, school and studying is pure bliss when its at the fun side & i do love it.
But when hell break lose, you'll just noe where to find solace.
For me, its THE BED.
=)

Memories..they sure do make you smile when you think about them.
I did and i know i still am.
How about you?

emrdyl

Its my bro's berthdae today!!!
Happy 17th Birthday dude!!
Dah besar adik aku.. hehex =)
Will upload some pixies if HE allows me to later. =)

Aniwae, today is a phew! day coz i've cleared my German Oral!!
Macam nak terkencing sey trying to make proper verbal sentence in front of the examiner;
but its fun coz i have nice partners like Yvonne & Ying.
And i just found out that Yvonne and me have been "stalking" the same guy.
Bwahaha! Official stalkers sey;
but well, the guy's going home soon already. *makesasadnakkenersepakface*
haha!
Im itching to upload the pix we exchange but on a second thought
who noes if he bloghops and stumble upon this blog and saw his face here!?
Mati terkejut sey member.
Than again, would a guy like him blog!?
LOL.
It was interesting how me & Yvonne makes assumptions and conclusions about him.
It shows that he must change his alter ego soon.
bwahaha. We are kurangasams i noe. *blueks*
And mind you, this conversation took place when we were
busy rehearsing before the Oral
and were gossipping about hot dudes roaming around in school.
They are hot yes, but super unreachable.
And if you guys are wondering how hot is this hot guy we are gossipping about;
he looks like the handsomer omputeh version of John Abraham,
betol, tak bedek.

*John Abraham*

Okae, enuff of my gatalness. Tsk!
Bertaubatla wahai manusia....
okae, its me.
hahah!
Have a great evening people!!

=)

emrdyl

2 days ago, in a frantic tone, i rang Isolde up at almost 10pm at night.
Guess what, my beloved Lappie got crashed
and i was super frightened.
One, i fear being gobbled up by my parents,
Second, i fear my Lappie's dead for good,
and that means i'll be paying back the almost $2k for nothing.
But with Allah's grace and with Isolde's assurance of coz,
my Lappie's find now.
Just that, i did what i was suppose to do since there wasn't any way out - Reboot.
Yes, you saw it right; i reboot my Lappie
and that means that MOST of the pixies i stored in C drive was gone.
Gone forever. =(
Aniwae, someone i dont know at all emailed me this
Very weird but very encouraging.
Guten Abend People! =)

emrdyl

I was surfing around for a decent self-entertainment
and i come across this website.
For those of you Sufi followers this is a site dedicated for you,
and even if you are not a Sufi fan
i bet the songs will give you the vibe.
The website is a web page of a Turkish-Indonesian group.
Very impressive since the lead vocalist is a Turk US Born guy and he speaks fluent Indonesian.
Thumbs up!
And OOH, im honoured the band member tags me. =)
haha

Okae, nytes people! =)

emrdyl

I like my current desktop.
*sings* There's a kid in me..there's a kid in you...hehe =)
On a suicidal note,
I have only a month left before the big exam.
I'm all stress up i swear.
It's killing every orgasmic cells inside me.
I don't feel like eating sweet stuff anymore
Coz i can forsee a sour & bitter journey
I know im gonna become a Zombie soon.
Sigh.
On that note, i might not be blogging after this.
I NEED all your prayers.
I'm alone in this journey.
All i need is time.

*I remembered how I'm suppose to start writng my new book.
And i was sad that i had to write it alone.
I had my hopes crushed, when you went away.
But now, i realised that we are actually co-authors of my new book.
Amazing isn't it?
When i thought my life is going to be fuzzy,
You turn back.
And i can't thank my GuardianAngel enough,
for being concerned over me.
Although i don't actually know you that well,
But i know you will always be there for me.
As much as i will always be here for you,
Despite the fact that i know
Im not soo needed since you know life more than i do.
To you GuardianAngel, *hugggs*
And now, i officially miss YOU.*
*bAAAAAAAng!!*

isolde's

been a few days since i last logged on.
quite a lot's been happening within these few days.
i didn't go through these days alone.
i had people who were from many stages of my life with me.
friends and families.
gifts from Allah.

before the revision lectures started on tuesday,
i went back to school on monday.
sat through the preview lectures for
management economics and auditing.
realised dat i totally underestimated what to expect
for yr 2 and yr 3.
at the same time, i also realised that
there's so much that i need to improve on and upgrade
in this little amount of time left.

i put my thoughts and worries on pause while
i met up with two of my much missed
jc babes: adeq (saerah) & chip (fizza)!!!



we tried contacting dale (fyda) but apparently,
she left her hp with her friend so we couldn't reach her.
or else, we'd be able to have a complete picture of
the four of us eating at our favourite puncak restaurant
having our usual dishes just like old times.

had maths revision lecture by our local lecturer the following day.
it ended at noon.
knowing that there will be a preview lecture on
financial reporting at 1pm,
my some of my uol-girls and i decided to sit for it
before heading for lunch at megabites.





feda, yana & ida joined us on wednesday for
the 8-hr stats revision lecture by the london lecturer.
by the end of thursday,
when we had our econs revision lecture by the local lecturer,
most of us are just so tired and could sense that
our attention span's diminishing slowly.
we pray hard, that Allah will give us strength
to go through the many revision lectures ahead.
especially the first week of april.
that's when we'll have almost a whole week straight
of revision lectures by london lecturers, whereby
each lecture will be for 8 hours.

a secondary school girl friend, aishie (aisha)
chat up with me sometime during the week.
thanks to Allah, we're now almost like how we used to be,
back in our riverside days.

this morning, my darling primary school friend,
none other than emrdyl,
and i, had plans to spend time catching up with each other
at a hawker centre somewhere near ikea.
a hawker centre coz emrdyl, being such a chick,
claimed that she's dressed too simply so
she doesn't want to go to any malls.
we were all psyched up but it all didn't happen.
anyway, here i am, blogging while excitedly waiting for nightfall
when emrdyl will be online and we'll then get to
update each other on the many things that's been
going through our hearts and minds.

my mum and i had a good time catching up with
my aunty and danial who was down with fever online just now.
guess emrdyl's sudden change of plans is
like doing me a favour coz i got to get all wacky
and exchange funny faces with danial and at the same time
hear him say "i want to talk to kakak zanna"
which totally melt my insides.



this week gave me the opportunity to
grow stronger, more determined and patient.
i've learnt to never hate; but i've also learnt to not care.
especially when i'm supposed to be hurt.

when i mentioned that i've learnt to not care,
that doesn't mean i've now got a heart of stone.
i have so much faith, happiness, drive, concern & love
pumping in this little organ of mine. for all time.
one of the many people my heart goes out to,
is my childhood best friend:
abang.



i can't imagine waiting for the one,
who wore matching TMNT tshirts with me,
outside the operation theatre.
the one who came first before kakak
in my best friends list.
20th april.
i'm glad i won't be having any revision lectures that day.
sissy and i promised ourselves that we're gonna be there for him.
we shall be praying hard for him.
may Allah help him get through it all. ameen.

emrdyl

The World War One Peace Conference yesterday was superb. To think that we kinda over-estimate the strength of the other countries.
It was the best experience ever.
It was unexpectedly fun.
& Of coz, simulating.

The Process:

*worked our ass out at SRC*
*trying to agree on certain issues*

The Aftermath:

*you guys rock!! will miss u alot!
Btw, the guy on the left (ALLAN) is one of the 50 Cleo Bachelors!!*

emrdyl

I screwed up BIG time.
I'm just afraid i won't be able to sustain it.
How?
Should i execute 'Plan B' instead?
But, i don't like the department.
At least, i don't want to taje the risk of being under them.
Sigh.
I'm at a total lost.
On one hand, he's okae.
And on another, she's not.
Why did i get myself into this sorta mess in the first place?
Is this the side-effect of stress;
that I don't realise what the heck that I am/have been doing?
Damn!
I know what i want but somehow I give way to my brain more than my heart.
Knowing well that my brain can be a lil nasty than my heart sometymes.
I can't seem to get things done like how i want it to be.
I used to be able to do that;
but somehow, i lost the touch along the way.
To what?
To whom?
I don't know.
Its just not there anymore.
The vibe;
seems gone.
I don't want to be the one wailing and whining at the end of the day
and neither do i want to be remorseful in time to come.
I can see myself changing.
But i don't want to change already.
Because i am happy with the way i am.
However, the urge to change seems greater than the urge to remain the same.
Yes, change can be beneficial but
at this juncture of my life
changing seems to have another type of effect.
And i'm hating it.
I hate the fact that i've become someone i don't know.
I hate the fact that i've become somone distant from the real me.
And i hate the fact that when i look into the mirror, i can only see a shadow.
Where's me?
Why am i getting myself into this mess?
And to think i thought i was wiser.
Sigh.

*p/s: don't have to read too deep or too much into my entry this time. coz there's no way you can figure out what im talking about.

isolde's

good morning :)

that's what i woke up to,
the day after i ran away from
where i am right now.

then, with the beautiful sunrise in the background,
dad & amar (cousin) played table tennis
while i watched them a few feet away.



the day was filled with me attempting to
play table tennis like li jiawei,
tucking into my grandmama's delicious cooking,
watching amar & amir (cousins) shoot the trees at
the garden behind the house using cheap-but-powerful toyguns,
(dad shot my back using the toy and man, i stood rooted to where i was
for quite sometime; all speechless coz of the pain which i had initially underestimated)
laughing at didi's (cousin) cute babytalk and adorable antics


"didi pegi pasar beli aper?
----- sarpan. (sarapan)
lagi?
----- sayo. (sayur)
lagi?
----- aging. (daging)
lagi?
----- oton. (sotong)
lagi?
----- ampesh. (pampers)"

amar and sissy went crazy with grandpapa's bike.
took turns being rider/pillion
under the scorching sun.
i just drove and drove without any destination in mind.
& amazed myself with my hidden skill in parking.
inside me, i believe amar and sissy share the same sentiments:
we just wanna move along. move along. move along....................

the day before was quieter.
before the rushdans arrived,
grandmama and the nazrans (ladies only),
went to the salon.
grandmama and sissy got themselves a haircut each
while i chose a new colour and did a little treatment.
though mum and i didn't get to do our facials
(no one picked up our call so we assumed they're closed.
i wonder if it's because it's a jumaat. but they aren't guys. hmmx....)
we managed to de-stress by feeding ourselves with the
gossips from the magazines available in the salon.

there you have it.
my sweet escape for the weekend.
lots of love, hearty laughters, simple pleasures.
with my paternal family.
(hope that explains didi's cheena boy looks! hehex!)


yeah, grandpapa's carpet grass excites me. hahax!

emrdyl

Told Isolde yesterday, i run out of words to blog these days.
In fact, we both have got nothing much to say.
However, i do have some thoughts to share,
But I can't seem to put it into words.

All i can say now is that:

Life's a rollercoaster.
You got to learn how to kickass.

emrdyl

First things first, Isolde's not in town. =(
She has gone to JB and will only be back on Sunday..
And thus, i demand company from all you people out there!! *grrr*
hahaha
Aniwae, I wouldn't wanna recall what happened on Wednesday evening.
Damn.
And Thursday..
But, thank god its Friday!! (TGIF)
*grinz*
Ach so, you guys dont have to read too much into what i type up there okae?
Step tau jer sua.. bwahaha

0_o Oh my, did i just sound like a minah? Shhheeeeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiitttt!!

Anyhoos, i just realised that my newborn baby cousin is not names Anaqi Sharil because my uncle thinks that the name Anaqi seems over-rated.
But the Sharill part of the name is still retained.
Does that ring a bell?
*makcik tone* Alah, that cinta bollywood who-dosen-look-indian hero's son la!

Aniwae, i actually do not have anything interesting to type about today.
I guess, my creatie juices have spilled on my notes instead.

On another note, i wish somenody, someone out there would create another day after Sunday.
Hmm, if i am that someone, somebody, what would i name that day?
Hmm, we already have got a STARDAY (saturday), SUNday and a MOONday (monday)..
Soo..
Aha!
I know!
Let's name it...
.........
GREENday!!
Eh best sey.
Can i have my own island instead?
And i assure you my own island have 3 weekend days.
No 7% GST.
Standard salary starting from 3.5k.
Amacam?
Siaper nak jadi citizen aku!?

So now in EmrLand we officially have these days...

MOONday (monday)(hari bulan)
TSCHUSday (tuesday)(in german, TSCHUS means bye!)
WEDday (wednesday)(hari kahwin. bwahahha)
THIRSTday(thursday)(hari haus)
FRYday(friday)(hari goreng. so anyone who wants to 'goreng' their parents, do it on this day ONLY! bwahahha)
STARday(sataurday) (hari bintang)
SUNday(sunday)(hari matahari)
and
and
the newly formed
GREENday! (greenday lorr)(hari hijau!)

THIS IS SO COOL RIGHT?!
RAISE UP YOUR HANDS LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*yeay!*

emrdyl

It sucks to lie in bed half of the day whilst your tummy's doing wrestling.

isolde's

emrdyl came up with
wednesday-picture-day.
she's already put up her choice of
pix of the day.

here's mine:


taken late 2006
@ somewhere in choa chu kang jurong east
farewell dinner before the crichtons leave the country

i've highlighted myself in the picture.
notice the fact that i'm lost in my own thoughts.
in my own bubble, not aware of whatever's going on around me.
(i wonder who iqa & the people at the guys-only table are looking at;
hmmx... sissy, kakak, farah & liyana seem to be eating quietly;
& what's that, that caught hana's attention? hmmx...)
since yesterday, i kept having to shake myself back to reality.
not daydreaming, i'm sure.
just thoughts. alot of thoughts.
at times, all of them came down on me at the same time that
i can't keep up or decide on which deserves my attention first.

i want to let it out.
but it feels like as soon as i open my mouth to pour things out,
i'll end up vomitting it all, along with the emotions that comes with them;
all dirty, smelly and not making any sense.

as i try to type out this entry,
i can feel my heart squeeze tight and i feel like
there's something choking me.

when things go all wrong, it hurts.
when things go all right, it hurts just the same.
i need to focus in making sacrifices to
divert my attention away from the fear.
i don't know if it's gonna be worthwhile.
but i have to do something.

i'm sorry for this entry, dear readers.
i know this isn't what you would like to read about.
sorry, yeah.............

Picxie Of The Day!

I dunnoe why i chose this pic.
Maybe its because this pic contains Oreo-like cookies.
And we both are Chocolate freaks, that's why.
Or maybe i chose this pic because the background rocks?
Well, i guess i chose this pic because
both Me & Isolde looked purrfect together.
Bwahaha.
*meow*

emrdyl's

Today was another great day.
Well, at least for me.
Why, u may ask.
Well, because another miracle happen.
And being me, i just HAD to make it happen.
So what did i do?
I took out my German Textbook and put it beside him on purpose.
Ah! WE finally talk for the first time.
Effort counts ey?

*deutschland, deutschland ist wunderbar!
deutschland, deutschland ich liebe dich!
willst du gehst deutschland mit mich?
Ich will nach Deutschland mit Ihnen kommen!!*

emrdyl's

Speaking about ‘Monday Blues’,
I personally have to rebut that term today
because I had a good start at school today.
Speaking about ‘Expectations’,
I have to agree with LadyLuck that at times,
things happen without you least expecting it.
And boy, was I relieved!
First A for the semester! [But I feel this is only a landslide victory. =(]
Alhamdulillah!
This is to quote my mum: “berkat Valentine’s Day”.
Yet again, V’day has been an overturn of events this 2007.
Speaking about ‘Miracles’, sometimes it’s hard to come by.
But when it starts knocking on your door,
You’ll be grinning from ear to ear.
I did.
Recalling back my conversation with Isolde the other day
About her simple pleasures,
I couldn’t agree with her more.
Indeed, in times like this
Simple-simple [pardon my singlish kata ganda! Sigh.] things like
Admiring the sun from outside the SBS window in the morning,
listening to a kickass music on Ipod,
Queuing up for an orgasmic Mocha Freeze or even
Just sitting at Coffeeclub looking at people walking pass
Is enough to turn a frown into a smile
Enough to turn a yelp of cry into echoes of laughter.
For once after soo long, I laughed until I shed tears today.
Burok I know, but who cares?
What matters most is,
I know I’m able to smile again
Despite what had happened.
I know I have people around me that
Will always be my personalize sunshine; after the rain.
I have a lot of catching up to do with my dearies.
I’m going to make the best time for all of you during my holis.
And for that matter, apologies to Isolde and Sis Nor
For not being able to join in the fun.
I missed out I know.
Will make up for it, insya-allah.
Have a nice Week people! =)

isolde's

i'm back.
& yesterday (sunday, 11th march), i went for the
much awaited harmony centre tour with sis nor <--- (click) (:


sorry it's blur. after all, it's taken using my hp's camera.
sis nor's in the middle (:

if you, emrdyl & dear readers, read sis nor's most recent tag,
that went:
"ladies! i'll see u gals tis Sun..
must be there by 9.30am..
if anything just reach my mobile.
Hey! dun "expect" too much fm this stuckathomemom..
LOL u gals are sweeter definitely !"
please IGNORE it.
reason being: she is really beautiful. God knows so well i'm NOT lying.
i couldn't help envying her lovely pair of eyes that was enhanced by
the mascara and eyeliner she put on!

together with sis nor and i, there were other brothers and sisters
from the faith hub. <--- (click).
all of the brothers and sisters, especially,
emitted this aura of kindess and sincerity.
effortlessly, just by being themselves, they made me feel
so welcomed being amongst them.
i could feel true Islamic brotherhood and sisterhood when i was with them.
it was amazing.
i couldn't help telling my family and kakak about them.
and they all told me how interesting it is to have such a society
in our cold, local environment.
emrdyl and i have Muslim friends from many parts of the world.
and most of the time, we get to feel Islamic brotherhood and sisterhood
only when we interact with Muslims NOT from singapore.
but faith hub's not part of what i've mentioned.
how faith hub truly shows that Islam is one,
regardless of who and what we are,
should be adopted by all Muslims especially those from our region.

to the brothers and sisters in faith hub:
salaams to those who get to read this...
i had a good time at the tour with those who were there,
especially the sisters.
masyaAllah, all of you are such kind souls.
i would love to meet all of you again and again.
my family, kakak and i, pray that all the efforts all of you
have put in to faith hub, will receive barakah from Allah.
may Allah reward each and everyone of you.

& sis nor, jazakillah khairan for introducing me to all of them.
you are wonderful, ya ukhti.

the tour was totally enriching.
i got to see Islam in almost every imaginable way.
i read, saw, discovered and learnt a lot.
Islamic scholars, their inventions, architecture, art,
history and many more.
my group's really lucky we got a guide who
happens to have a wide array of knowledge.
his explanations and own personal background knowledge
managed to grab my attention through out the tour.
& the harmony centre @ an-nahdhah mosque
is a lovely and cosy place.
i love the mosque too.
especially the peaceful prayer halls.






insya'Allah. i'll be there someday --- Makkah.

as i laid around in bed after i got home from the tour,
i realised how wonderful the field of study of someone i know is.
slowly i recalled, i was told that a research of missionaries had to be done,
a study of archimedes's <--- (click) works,
readings and discussions of avicenna (ibn sina) <--- (click) etc.
all that and relating it back to Islamic teachings.
the tour showed me why the person is so into this
degree majoring in theology being pursued
far away in the land of the pyramids.
with that, may Allah bless this warrior of Islam with
patience, health, safety and everything that will help make the journey
a smooth & successful one; the jihad.

btw, currently, the person is to do a case study on
converts in singapore.
& of course, i introduced faith hub's website to aid in the work to be done.
(:

before i end this lengthy entry (isolde's first wordy entry! yay!),



emrdyl,
i made a dash for the toilet before my dad arrived to pick me up.
after doingwhatihadtodo, i snapped the above two pic quickly.
the toilet-mirror-reflection pic i have above is incomplete without you.
some of the sisters and brothers asked about you & were really concerned.
yeah, told you they're such sweet souls. (:

as we've told ourselves again and again,
we're always sisters.
& that's why, i cried for you.
whatever pains you, pains me too.

i assure you, you won't be alone in this new voyage.
i'll always be with you.
yes, i am going to start being crazily busy with
my preparations for my final exams.
but i'll never be too busy should you need me anytime.

get well soon, okies.
remember our new "motto":
the many simple pleasures
& this important resposibility of us as an undergrad
along with our thirst to be successful,
doesn't make it worthwhile for you and i to ever be sad.

anyway, there's always the one in georgia,
who is ever willing to help us youknowwhatimean. hahax!
if your boy looks like danial, and i get a girl like isabelle,
we "tunang-kan" early-early arh! *insider's info* hahax! :P

& dear readers,
the above goes out to you too.
i'm sure i'm never the best listener
nor do i give good advices.
but i love all of you fee sabeel lillah.
call me, beep me, email me or tag me.
no worries. insyaAllah.

[especially YOU:
darling sissy, kakak, iqa, sis nor, sis ain, sis farfalla, lyn,
sis rhea, aish, mya, nazi, shaheerah...]

hmmmx..... are there any silent readers out there?

emrdyl's (again!)

You guys might have noticed Isolde's M.I.A-ness
But let me tell you something, she has just completed her Prelim exams
and therefore she's kinda burnt out
& thats why she's been not-blogging these days
& besides, as informed, her lappie's sick.

That aside, i hope she's enjoying her ass out dating with Sis Nor!
Blame it on my non-stop coughing.
Dah macam Mama Rock sekarang.
But, im just afraid my Asthma will come back.
& if that happens, it sucks.
I'll be like a wheezing queen.
-_-"

On another note,
I miss people.
Certain people though.
People who have brought meaning into my life.
I have fond memories with them.
Happy & Sad alike.
& those memories are etched in my heart forever.
Some say i have strong sense of memory;
meaning, i could remember things from way back when i was young
and i still can recall them vividly today.
And not only visual images, but also verbal sounds.
They are in my head.
Sometymes i feel like im an alien
coz how many people have that sort of sense of memory?

And i personally feel that
because i have this characteristics in me
that's why i get annoyed & irritated easily
and get very short-fused
whenever i am around people
who have a digging-the-past kinda attitude
(read: orang yang suker ungkit)
Somehow, it just irks to be around them.

I don't see the connection of the past and the future
in lieu of the composition of a human being.
Yes, im a history enthusiast.
Yes, im a European History major.
But, on matter of human connection
i don't see why you should let the past
spoil a relationship.
They say, forgive & forget is the best cure
add a lil bit of compromise
and it makes the perfect solution.
But, i just dont see why you can't do it.

My personal take on this is, if you can't FnF
at least, practice on one.
And if you prefer to forgive but remember
i believe that its best that
you do not launch a personal attack on another party
by continuosly digging out her past issues.
Because, at the end of the day
she will be upset
you will be sad
and both of you will end up in another row of arguments;
about how life is unfair.
Its going to be another round of circles.
And trust me, no one enjoys it.
At least, i don't.

It's sad that some individuals
prefer digging to starting afresh.
It's a letdown.
The past should be made as an episode
where u learn from your mistakes.
The past should be made as a keepsake in which
should be placed in a treasure chest
and float it out at sea.
The past should be made as a challenge
for you to be someone better in time to come.

But, some people use the Past as a weapon
to provoke, to hurt and to critisize.
They use the Past as a yardstick to measure
a human's moral values
attitude and self-worth.

You learnt from your past to create a better future.
Not, use the past to annihilate the bright sparks ahead.
You make use of the past to make sure that you won't end up
in a repetition.
Not, use it to make sure that the person can never stand up strong again.

It's disappointing when you have such people in your life.
People who think that they are saints
with a holy past just because they have never had a relationship before.
And who look at others as satans
who have a devilish past just because they have Ex(s).

Absurd, i know.
This is life.
The world is divided into parts
each containing different individuals
who have have different brains
and therefore different mindsets.

All i can say is now: Just My Luck.

Thanks Isolde for being there.
*huggs*
I appreciate every drop of tears you have cried for me.
You're Amazing! *inside joke*
=)

I think i can smile again now,
coz i believe i have made the right decision.
Im writing a new life story now,
Care To Join My Voyage?
*winkz*

emrdyl's

Before the personal encounter,
I used to be a big fan of Emre Altug and Tarkan.
Both of their songs used to be my bedtime lullaby
And their songs became part of my brain-workout theme songs
Before the personal encounter,
I used to have full admiration for the Blue Mosque.
And whenever there was the advertisment on Suria
I would whine to my parents, telling them that i wanna step foot there
I wanna see the Dervish guys doing their spinning live!
Before the personal encounter,
I frequent Anatolia alot coz the food matches my tastebuds.
I used to love the ice-cream
& would find every excuses to drag my family to the different places in Singapore
Just to buy it.

Before the personal encounter,
I used to go to Language 101 website to listen to
how the language is being spoken
Before the personal encounter,
I would often begged my dad to tell me stories of him and them
Them being my dad's best frens on the ship
Dad told me they are the most good-looking humans on earth
"Handsome burger" is the term he used on them.
And i saw the picxies
Very nice looking-nose(s).
Before the personal encounter,
I was excited whenever the name of the place reached my ear.
However,
After the personal encounter,
It kills my interest badly.
It made me think twice.
It leads me to numbness.
Most importantly,
I' M H U R T.

emrdyl

I have made plans.
It was suppose to work out.
I drafted it out.
Sat down and look at it and smile;
but it just cannot work out.
The make-up tutorial i was suppose to attend
Then came Isolde's birthday preparations
The mini-celebration
The gift (although not something very grand)
The surprise
The huggs and laughters
Then came school
That research i had to do in the Lib
The paper i had to draft
Then came the outing with Raf & Han.
That choc indulgence
Sigh..
All because i woke up feverish.
& everything came to a halt.
All because i have work to do up to my throat
& im not in the best of health.
This sucks.
I hate it when i have been planning things for the week
but it dosen turn out right.
Im sorry guys.
Sorry Isolde
Sorry Han.
Sorry Raf.
Sorry =(

emrdyl

My fingers are particularly ithcy tonight
and so i had to post something here
but rest assured that this post will be editted soon
I had a wonderful day today with the nephews and niece!
+ the cousins and auntiesuncles! =)

Okae, so here goes the much awaited post.
4th March 2007; my 1st nephew (on my mum's side that is)
celebrated his 4th birthday!
(note: actually his birthday falls on 26th Feb.
but due to his mum's (my cousin) busy schedule
it was brought forward.)
Besides, its a birthday party cum housewarming
coz my cousin just shifted to a new neighbourhood.
Anyway, being the Aunty that i am (hehe)
i had the instinct that my nephew (lets call him E-boy)
would love the prezzies i bought!
Its a mixed stationary set by his favourite cartoon/kids show
which are of coz PowerRanger Thunderstorm
(during my time i only know one form of poweranger. how time changes!!)
Barney and Tom&Jerry.

So when we arrived, look at what the heroes are doing:
They were soundly sleeping.!!
Too tired perhaps.
Btw, the birthday boy is the one in checkered.
And and i couldn't get to take picture of the birthday cake
coz apparently he didnt want to share the cake
coz he say "lawar sangat!"
Oh my!
Its a Chicken Little cake.
Instead, he let his mum cut another cake
(read: ader 2 cake la sey!)
which is of an adult-theme; courtesy of Begawan Solo.
Blueberry Chocolate cake.
Anak siaper la yang invent this sort of recipe?
Who says blueberry and choc are best frens?!
*growls*

Aniwae, cake issues aside;
the boys finally awoke!
And soon enough, it was playtime:
I love the boy's bedroom cum playroom
Since they are 2 seperate individuals in reality
the dad made sure that there were
2 basketball nets
2 toys basket
and
2 armchairs
and 2 toys of the same kind.
Almost like twins already this two.

But, the toy
that captured my attention
is existing only on its own
Mahal sangat nak beli duer i guess.
Haha
As usual, being the Aunty whose only 20...
Haha! I attacked the slide!!
Cool kan!?
I dont remember having slides when i was a kid.
I know i have the famous
Masak2 set just like Isolde's
with the stove, oven and whatever perkakas dapur
that can be miniatured for young mak-neneks like me.
And as a complementary good to the masak2 set
i have a collection of PlayDough!!
Bwahaha
And not forgetting Pollypocket!
I love Pollypocket!
I had my first make-up set at 6;
courtesy of Pollypocket! ahaha
Im not a big fan of Barbie coz its sounds like Babi to me.
Tak halal per babi...*_0.
HAHAHA.
And of coz i love Teenagemutant Ninja Turtle.
That's why my first pet was a turtle's cousin = Terrapin.
Bangger sey!
Heex. =)
And i had lots of teddybears
One being a big Purple-Carebear and
Elmo and the garbage green sesame st character.
Aper sey namer dier? *wonders*
And i have a walkman!
Hahaha.
A walkman at 3 years old.
How cool is that?
Now i noe why music and me are inseperable.
And i remembered i have lots of intellectual stimulation games.
-_-"
One being the famous MENSA toys (not MENSUS!! sigh)

Anyway, the boys freaked me out when they
stripped in front of me coz
they wanted me to see them bathe
in their famous bath tub.
Weeeei, the last time i saw that thing
was 12 years ago okae, when my younger bro was a baby.
Chet!
My One-year old niece; Insyirah Putri.
Their lil sister whom they call KAKAK!
-_-"
Can u imagine?
Btw, this baby and E-boy look exactly the same.
Don't believe?
Samer kan??
Haha, Photocopy habess.
Don't mind the berthday boy's pathetic look hor..
He actually nak kencing.
But, being the Aunty that i am,
i demand camwhoring!
Muahahaha.

Amacam, ader tokoh jadi Ummi tak?
(AhBengTranslation: How, can become Mummy or nooot??)
Tapikan, without a male figuure
I look like Ibu Tunggal sey.
Sedih sey ..
Cannot lah liddatttttttt! =( *sniff sniff*

Anyhoos, the boy can't wait to unwrap his prezzie
& upon unwrapping my prezzie
he squealed in excitement
and quickly tugged at his dad
to find his schoolbag.
Btw, the prezzie he's holding
is being taken away by my darling Wawan (his lil bro)
coz apparently; the adik also
wanted to have a birthday party
on the same day
oblivious to the fact that
February (or march since it was being brought 4ward)
and June does not fall on the same month.
HAHAHA.

So yeah, It was a lovely day.
Splendid evening and of coz
much stories to exchange.
Upon seein my cousin who has already
3 kids at the age of 25.
Somehow it occurs to me that
the presence of kids
do mellow down a person's
attitude and the way he/she
views life.
It's good to know people change for the better.
When's yours?